Drowning in Regret

I don't know how this all happened. It all seems so unreal. A moment ago I was driving along the coast. It was all so beautiful. Just like in a movie. The sun was just touching the water and there was no one on the road. Just me and my car crusing along. It must have been the sun in my eyes. Yeah, that must have been it. You know how in the movies when a car goes over a cliff and falls into the ocean it explodes? Well I guess the movies aren't 100% true.

So here I am still in my car. I don't really remember what happened when I was in the air and when I hit the water. It was all so fast and so slow at the same time. I could see everything happening, but I just couldn't react to it. Something must be broken because I don't seem to be able to move. At first I tried to struggle, but my breath slowly trickled away. It was a little painful when I first pushed the air out of my lungs and sucked in the water, but now... now it's all so calm.

It's strange. I never thought it would end like this. I always thought I would die in my bed. When I was old and had already had a family. The thought of death never really entered my mind before then. But here I am. I guess it sucks that I have to die now. It's not just that I never really got started on my life, I think it's more that I regret never getting to close my life. I never really got to say goodbye. I didn't get to tell the people I cared about those final words that they might remember me by. Most of all, I never got to tell them that I loved them.

All my dreams of the future are washed away as I sink farther and farther. They say that your life flashes before your eyes before you die, but I guess that isn't true either. I wonder what I would have done differently if I would have known that today would be the day I died. It seems funny, but right now I am thinking about all the things that I thought were such a big deal before. All that working out. The studying. My petty worries about what it meant when the cute girl in front of me turned around and smiled at me. It's all so pointless now, and the only part of me that will be left is the one in peoples memories.

Its getting darker and I don't know if its the sun setting or